Two Sides

I feel like I have two moods. Either I feel like shit, and I'm exhausted; or I'm bored as hell and weirdly energetic. I can't really explain it. All I can say is that yesterday, I felt like absolute trash-- I was very tired, which probably added to that, and something pretty awful had happened … Continue reading Two Sides


A Letter to Myself

You've made the one person who once loved you, hate you. You did that. That was all you. You took for granted what you had, you played with fire, you got burned. You fucked up. You make everything infinitely harder for yourself than it has to be. You keep secrets, you lie, then pretend you're … Continue reading A Letter to Myself


You know what, I'm actually so tired of living this way. I need something to change, within the next week. I can't do this for another week. I'm tired of spending all this time craving someone else's approval and never feeling good enough. I'm tired of waking up with no motivation at all to do … Continue reading Stuck


The sound of the cleaning lady vacuuming in the living room wakes me up at around 10 AM and the first thing I notice is that I'm incredibly thirsty. I sit up and empty the glass of water I put next to my bed the day before (thank you, sober me) and the next thing I … Continue reading Flatline