Mermaid Tales

I take a deep breath and disappear below the surface of the water. It's silent here and gravity doesn't pull on me as much. I'd like to stay here for a while, but in the back of my mind, I know I can't. I let my fingers slide across the wall as I cross the … Continue reading Mermaid Tales


Me For Me

I'm having fun at work. I never thought I'd be the kind of person to say that, but work is good, the people are nice, I feel like I belong. It's when the day is over, when I get home to a quiet house, when I have nothing to do, nowhere to go and no … Continue reading Me For Me

38 Days

I'm forcing myself to write this down, even though I'm tired and all I really want to do is either cry, or cut my skin, or both. I need someone to tell me I'm not insane, because my own brain isn't reliable enough. You wouldn't trust your greatest enemy with your diary, would you? Well, … Continue reading 38 Days

About That

      Something that I don't ever really talk about to anyone, something that no one probably notices, yet something that's been taking up my energy for at least seven years, is my eating habits, and my body issues, which is something that influences my eating habits a LOT, as you can imagine. The … Continue reading About That


It was a slow conversation, the kind that lasts forever, but never really takes off. I know why. I'm boring when I don't drink. I texted you first, for a dumb ass reason, because I just wanted someone to talk to. You were on my mind, you always are these days, so I texted you, … Continue reading Ego

Two Sides

I feel like I have two moods. Either I feel like shit, and I'm exhausted; or I'm bored as hell and weirdly energetic. I can't really explain it. All I can say is that yesterday, I felt like absolute trash-- I was very tired, which probably added to that, and something pretty awful had happened … Continue reading Two Sides


You know what, I'm actually so tired of living this way. I need something to change, within the next week. I can't do this for another week. I'm tired of spending all this time craving someone else's approval and never feeling good enough. I'm tired of waking up with no motivation at all to do … Continue reading Stuck